The princess in the city is a princess no more: On Valentine's Day (Part 2, way delayed)

"Ever got the feeling of being alone in a crowd?"

A friend of mine randomly asked this question while we were waiting for the next train at the terminal this week. I paused for a bit and realized that this was exactly what I felt on Valentine's Day.

I was actually looking forward to Valentine's Day this year because Jen and I decided that we were gonna do the Anti-Valentine's date, get all prettied up, have a nice dinner with Nathan, our "foster dad", then head out to Orchard to bash mushy couples passing by. On the night itself, however, things weren't going as well as we expected. For starters, Nathan got stuck at work so it was only Jen and I at dinner. We came up with a Plan B and met up with Stace and the other Manila kids from SMU at NYDC Heeren. And while it was great seeing and talking to all of them again, a part of me felt detached from it all. The familiar feeling of being a spectator to my own life, seeing it all happen but only from a distance, and having no power to stop it sunk in.

So there I was, sitting at NYDC, surrounded by friends and upbeat conversation, yet feeling alone. The day ended eventually, and Jen and I caught the bus home in our pretty frocks, engaging in small talk with a hall friend we bumped into at the bus stop. Yet I remained pensive for most of the trip, watching the city lights and cars with happy couples inside pass by in one, unrecognizable blur. It was during that ride home that I realized that I really am on my own from now on, which was probably why I felt that way. But despite the heavy feeling that settled upon me that night, I found comfort in thought that I am being taken care of and everything will be alright. I know He's with me, and somehow that makes me feel that things will be okay.

Ending this post on a slightly happy note are pics from that night. Happy Valentine's Day everyone!